Once upon a time, I was frustrated. Extremely frustrated. The BSB Documentary had come out and we’d learned about Brian’s vocal condition but fans were afraid to talk about it. So I wanted to start a blog. I wanted to use it as a vehicle to create conversation about it. It wasn’t the first post on the blog. I was a little too nervous to go for that immediately, but it was within the first ten posts. That was the original reason I’d started it. I’d asked for advice from Sara at What Happens On The Backstreet as she had a successful blog at that point in 2015. She gave me some tips and I strove to create a space for me to write about my favorite group. That’s all I wanted, a space to write and talk about all the things rattling around in my brain when it came to the Backstreet Boys.
It took off pretty quickly, gaining notice from members of the group themselves on different occassions. It expanded into a YouTube Channel, and eventually a TikTok that has over 34,000 followers. It led to me being asked to help moderate both Nick’s solo FC and BSB’s FC pages. I’ve been given opportunites I never once could’ve expected. It’d led me to make new lifelong friendships. It gave me a level of support I never once could have expected after my dad passed. This fandom, despite the dysfunction, was a family to me. I don’t know what I expected when I started this page. Beyond you know, writing things that I enjoy and with the hopes that someone enjoys reading this right along with me.
The Boys, if they happen to read this, make it so easy to keep at this. Their passion, their appreciation, their ability to keep at it? Well it inspires someone like me to keep at it too. Makes it so easy to support them through the ups and the downs. There’s been a mix of both and over the years I’ve had not a single regret. If anything, I want to keep going.
Content creating has become one of my favorite hobbies whether if it’s here writing and rambling about different things or making quirky little TikToks. So much has come my way over the years and never did I think I’d still be doing this ten years later. I remember within my first two years having the chance to witness the Boys take over Las Vegas and everything really take off in the craziest way. Now here we are again, full circle. I know at the end of the day I didn’t make this journey alone. You, reading this? Your support is just as much how I got here. Those of you who take the time to comment here, or on Instagram, TikTok, etc. Those of you who walk up to me just to say hi. You, the ones who DM me telling me how something I said helped you create a special memory on tour or in a VIP. All of you. You are why. And I am so thankful for everything that it’s given me for the past decade. Words will fall short forever in how much the support has meant to me. It means more than I will ever be able to say. But thank you. Thank you for being here with me now and for being here with me ten years ago.
I don’t know where this journey will end, or when.
What I do know, is that I’m grateful for the ride.
The Dark Side 